The Feeling of you

My first Shizaya fanfic without crazy crossovers! XD
Don't worry guys! I'm gonna finish Second Meeting. I just needed to make
something like this to increase more reviews.

Anywayz, got the title from one of the MAD PVs in
youtube. But I won't tell you~ (trololololol) Enjoy the story!

And yes, I changed my pen name to raita-san(writer-san).

Ikebukuro, A city full of strange phenomenons and
happenings. In this city stood a school named Raira Highschool. Raira isn't
that prestigious, but it was a pretty good school with well-maintained grounds
and good  facilities. I go to this school along with some 'friends' of mine.

My name is Orihara Izaya. I'm 16 years old and I love
humans. Why you ask? That's because humans are selfish and dull. But that's
what makes them interesting. They're desires, needs and selfishness entertain
me so much. I just can't stop myself from loving and manipulating them. I love
to make them suffer just for fun. It pleases me. I love all of them.

But.

One person. No. Monster. Made me break this principle
of mine. His name is Heiwajima Shizuo. He's unreasonable and unpredictable.
Saying 'he hates violence' is just too cliché of him, He's violence himself. I
mean, he can rip off street signs from solid pavement and can carry anything 3
to 5 times his size! He doesn't do anything I expect him to. He's so
unpredictable…

And I hate how much I love him.

That's right, yours truly, loves a monster. I don't
know why this happened. The first time I met him, I hated him. But when a year
passed and I realized that I actually felt infatuation towards this monster.
It's shocking isn't it? I, Orihara Izaya, has fell head over heels for a
monster.

I hate this feeling. It Hurts…..

Once again, me and Shizu-chan were on our little game
of 'tag'. I ran in the hall with fast steps and a smirk visible on my face.
Behind me ran Shizu-chan carrying a desk. He panted harshly and gritted his
teeth, trying to fasten his pace just to catch me.

Pity him.

I made a rough left turn at the corner and entered
through the door to the roof. Shizu-chan did the same. I ran up the steps with
no problem. While the protozoan was having a hard time trying not to fall. He
hurled the desk at me but it missed my head a centimeter too short.

"Ahahahahahaha!!! You can do better than that Shi~zu-chan!~"
I laughed. It's no fun when he's only doing a half-assed job to kill me. It may
cost my life to play with him, but hey, I don't want to get bored.

"don't worry I~ZA~YA-KUUN~!" he shouted with
that sickly sweet voice. "When we reach the roof, I won't hesitate to beat you
up senseless!!" That's what he always say. But in the end, he couldn't catch
me.

I finally reached the door to the roof. I kicked the
door open and ran to the corner of the building. I brought out my knife and
pointed at the door where Shizu-chan will appear. Sweat trickled down my face
and I panted heavily with my devilish smile.

Shizu-chan arrived and stopped at the doorway. He saw
that I had nowhere to go. Just like a trapped mouse. He gave out his savage
grin and kicked the door close, not taking his eyes off me. He shoved his hands
in his pockets and made his way towards me.

"looks like the cat wins today, I~za~ya-Kun~"

"Cat? Really Shizu-chan, I prefer you to be called as a
'monkey' instead. Besides, you throw stuff randomly at someone due to irritation
and impulse" . There is nothing more I can enjoy than provoking this protozoan.
I find it entertaining.

His savage look faded and was replaced with a scowl. He
ran towards me and threw a punch. I dodged his hit. He destroyed the metal fence
behind me which made it fall down to the ground below. The people below
scattered to avoid getting hit. I jumped at the top of the fence which wasn't
affected by Shizu-chan's monstrous strength. I spread both of my hands to
support my balance. I turned to him and flashed him my all-knowing smirk. He
glared at me and gritted his teeth while growling like a mad dog. "My My
Shizu-chan, can't you think before you act? You know better than anyone that I'm
light as a feather that I can dodge anything. Your protozoanic brain still has
it's uses you know."

His growl became louder " Shut the fuck up, louse….. I
hate you" He spat.

My heart clenched from those 3 simple words. It felt
like I was being pierced with a million needles. He's been saying those words
over and over again since the first day we met. Those words have been said by
many, directed to me. I got used to it. But once he says it. I still can't get
used to it at all.

I just smirked to hide the pain. "ahahaha, I know such
a thing Shizu-chan" I turned away from him. "Besides, that feeling between us
is mutual" I jumped.

The blonde just stared at the part where I jumped off
the building. He stood there with wide eyes trying to process what I just did.
He blinked then ran to the part of the roof where the fence was no longer
present. He kneeled down to see a better view to see the ground. No body was
found on the ground. "What the-….. Where?"

"YAHOO SHIZU-CHAN!!~♥"

He looked to the side and saw me sitting on a window
frame of a classroom with a smile.

His worried expression disappeared was instantly filled
with an expression full of rage "IIZAAAAAAAYAAAAAAAAA!!!!" He yelled at the top
of his lungs while waving his fist " I SWEAR I'M GONNA FUCKIN' KILL YOU!!!!"

I laughed and swung my feet " ahahahaha! Were you
worried about me Shizu-chan?! Anyway, Maybe next time!! It's time for my next
class!! See ya~!" I yelled back so he can hear me. I went inside the classroom
which made all eyes stare at me. I just smiled at them then I skipped out of
the classroom. I heard Shizu-chan yell my name and then was followed by a
sound. He probably punched a wall.

I skipped down the hall with a smile. I remembered the
words he said to me awhile ago.

" Shut the fuck up, louse….. I hate you"

" I SWEAR I'M GONNA FUCKIN' KILL YOU!!!!"

My skipping slowed down and I look at the floor. My
expression filled with sadness. Hoping no one would see me like this. "The
feeling is mutual, Shizu-chan…"

"Just……. Mutual.."

I slid the door to the classroom open and walked in. I
sat on my chair and rested my head on my desk. I looked around the room but no
blonde monster was found in the premises.

'Shizu-chan's still probably at the roof..'

"Izaya-kun!~"

I looked to my side and saw Shinra looking down at me
with that goofy smile plastered on. I lifted my head off the desk and leaned
back on my chair, flashing him with a smile "Oh hello Shinra! I don't remember
they let monkeys inside the school"

He pouted and sat on the desk right next to my own "I
don't remember being born as a monkey Izaya-kun. So? How did your little 'love
game' with Shizuo-kun go?" He said with a smile.

I scoffed and looked at him with an eyebrow raised "Really
Shina? 'Love Game'? I prefer it to called 'Hate to Death Game'. Besides, the
only feeling we have when we chase each other is absolute loathing"

Shinra knew about my pitiful love towards a certain
blonde a long time ago. I didn't tell him anything that had hints of it. He
just noticed it by my movements and such in front of Shizu-chan. He has
experiences on love after all. Due to his love towards a headless Dullahan.

Thanks to this emotion I'm currently having. I'm acting
more and more like a human. Damn it.

"So you haven't confessed yet?" His expression turned
sad.

I chuckled and shook my head " Shinra Shinra…, you know
Shizu-chan better than me, He'll just laugh at my face and throw something at
me if I confess. He'll just think of it as a joke coming from me. I'm contented
with our current relationship. Besides, I'm only compatible with hate as a
feeling and an enemy to Shizu-chan." I waved my hand.

Shinra was about to retort until the Teacher came. "Okay
Class! No greetings cause I'm tired and I had a shitty day today. Let's just go
ahead with the role calls!"

The students stayed quiet as they returned to their
seats. One thing was this teacher is so irresponsible.

The teacher slammed his book and the attendance book on
the desk and opened it. "Say present when I call your name, got that bitches?"

'Bitches'? Really… I have never seen
such an irresponsible and rude teacher in my whole life.

12 role calls later……

"Fuukaku Hana"

"Present!"

"Hagoki Shota"

"Present.."

"Heiwajima Shizuo"

"…………"

"Heiwajima Shizuo?" called the teacher once again. All
of the students looked around except me.

"Huh? Where's Heiwajima-kun?"

Well, I was the only one who knew where he was.

"Probably at the roof sensei! Should I go fetch him?" I
asked.

The teacher gave me a disapproving look. "Orihara-kun,
You might provoke him when you get there. And it will lead to mass destruction.
I'll just get another student to get him. So, Anyone wanna get that lazy
bastard?" He called out.

Nobody dared to raise a hand or make a noise. Everyone
was afraid of the blonde's strength. Going to him would be like going to a lion's
den out of curiosity. Well, I wasn't afraid of him.

"See Sensei?" I said "So? Are you gonna let me get him?"
I asked once again. But this time with more confidence and with a smirk painted
on my lips.

He stared at me for 10 seconds then sighed in defeat "okay
okay you win Orihara-kun. If you guys got into a fight again. Don't come back
here. Go straight to the infirmary as usual" He said as he took his book and
opened it.

I nodded then skipped my way to the door. I closed it
then proceeded my way to the monster.

I opened the door with caution and poked my head out to
see if anything might come flying at me. I opened it wider then stepped out "Shizu-chan!"
I called out.

Yes Yes I know that calling out his name would be
dangerous. But I like to take risks. Life is all about taking risks right?

I walked farther away from the door then turned my
head, searching for the protozoan. I noticed the wall had a small crater on it.
Probably Shizu-chan got pissed off earlier that he decided to make the wall his
victim.

"Shiiiii~zu-chaaaaan~! Where are you~!" I shouted once
again.

"Shiiizu-"

"Snore……"

Snore?

I walked to the source of the snoring which was at the back
side of the roof. I stopped when I saw Shizu-chan sleeping peacefully. He was
leaning on the wall and his head tilted to the side, lips slightly parted.

My mouth's corners turned slightly upward from the
sight. He looks cute.

What? Got a problem with me saying Shizu-chan looks
cute?

I walked to him hesitantly. Thinking that he might wake
up any moment now. I crouched and started poking his cheeks with my index
finger "Shizu-chan wake up. Sensei told me to get you." Not bothering to keep my
voice down.

He just groaned slightly and shifted a little. I jumped
slightly and proceeded to stand. But was stopped when Shizu-chan snored again.

I pouted then squatted on the floor "Your such a hard
sleeper Shizu-chan. Your so open right now that I might jump on you and slice
your throat open with my knife" I stared at him for 30 seconds for a response.
But he didn't.

I sighed then I scratched the back of my neck, thinking
of what to do. Usually I would know what exactly to do in these kinds of
situation, But with Shizu-chan in the picture. My ideas go away. I look at him
again. Remembering that I'm actually alone with him.

I just can't take my eyes off him.

I smiled "you know Shizu-chan? You really don't get it.
All of those provoking wasn't enough for you to notice even a smidge."

Why…. Don't you notice?

I moved on top of him and looked at Shizuo with a sad
expression. Hoping he won't wake up. And at the same time, hoping he'll wake up
to hear me" I know you can't hear me right now. But I still want to tell you."

Why does it hurt?

"You're an idiot" I held his hand with my left and I
placed my right hand on his chest. Feeling his steady heartbeat. " You
absolutely… don't get it" I moved closer until our faces were only inches
apart.

"When will you notice that I don't you hate you like I
used to" I captured his lips with mine, savoring the moment. Then I pulled away
from him and I looked at him searching for something I can't describe. Tears
began swelling on the corners of my eyes.

" I love you Shizu-chan… I love you that it hurts."

Poor Poor Iza-chan This is probably my first time
writing a kissing scene. And I suck XD

Anyway this is not the end!! There are still more
chapters to come! Probably it will end on the 4^th or 5^th
chapter of the story..

Anyway, Review my lovelies~!